So... Today has been kind of strange so far, and will most likely continue to be strange.
In first period I had to ask my teacher to write a reccomendation letter for a scholarship application. I've never done that before. I didn't know if there was a proper way or if you just ask. But, I just asked and she said okay. I just said I needed it by sometime next week or so. I didn't want to be forceful or make her rush. I have to do the same in seventh period.
When I got into third period (the period I am currently in as I am typing this) I sat down at my computer and it felt different. The keyboard and the mouse are the same. The computer monitor and CPU seem to be the same ones. But it is almost as if it has been reset. The internet icon was missing from the desktop. The background was different. The internet history was cleared. There are no documents. It was perfectly normal yesterday, but today everything is wonky. Our tech ladies (AKA: "The Sisters") probably came in and did something to it. *Involuntary Shivering*
I will leave school early today. My mom is supposed to pick me up around 3 or so in order to take me to an optometrist appointment. I am going to get my eyes checked and then possibly go to get new glasses if there is time. I hope there is time. I want new glasses. I hope to get some similar to the ones I have already, but slightly different. I want what I call "David Tennant" or "Doctor Who" glasses. Basically, black framed glasses that are rectangular shaped. The pair that I have been using is very similar, but the frames are wire instead of plastic and they are slightly rounded. I just hope such glasses fit my face well.
I am super talkative again today. I really don't want to stop typing. I had Green Mountain brand caramel vanilla coffee today. It was so delicious. When you go to brew it in the Keurig machine, it smells like caramel corn.
Yesterday, I worked on my economics homework at school, then spent all of my time at home watching Les Miserables. I hadn't seem it before, so one of my friends is letting me borrow the DVD of like the 25th anniversary performance or whatever. Nick Jonas plays one of the main characters. It is like a three hour show, so I only watched an hour of it yesterday before deciding to stop and continue it later. I got to the intermission. But the story is soooooooooooooooooooo good and very sad. My friends don't really like the part being played by Nick Jonas because he does not act and sing the same as the other people on stage. He lacks the foreign accent and sings in more of a popstar voice than an operetic voice. I like it, even though it is different and takes a couple of minutes to get used to.
I realized yesterday that Nick Jonas is only three years older than me. When I was younger and a really big fan of the Jonas Brothers, I thought that they were all so much older than me. Kevin and Joe are, but Nick really isn't that far off. Technically if we were both normal people, we could meet at college, fall in love, and get married and it be appropriate. NOT that I have daydreams of that sort of thing. I just think about ages and stuff and how old is too old when you are looking at a future spouse. I think having a few years in between you is okay, but any more than 6 or 7 is a little out there.
Then again, I have never actually had a for-real boyfriend or gone on a for-real date. I have never been in for-real love and I was the one with guts who asked a guy to prom last year.
Single. Forever. I'm. Hopeless.
I still have no clue what I will do for prom this year. If no one asks me, which is a very likely thing, I'll probably tag along with my best friends. However, they both have boyfriends who have graduated, so they can either go without a date or have their boyfriends do a background check and bring them anyway. If the second option becomes a reality, I will totally be a third wheel... Well, a fifth one.
I can think of about three guys that I would go to prom with. Maybe five now that I think harder. None of them have girlfriends. However, I doubt any of them would consider asking me. SEE? THIS IS WHY I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN SO UNAFRAID, because guys are too dumb to consider me. They seem me as just a friend and okay being alone. Ugh.
I just hope things change when I go to college. There has to be someone that I look appealing to once I go to college. I have been told before by a guy that I looked pretty, but that when you spend all of your school years associating with someone, you don't seem to be attracted to them in that way.
GREAT. Now I've depressed myself.
I'll just wait anxiously for college and go to prom by myself and keep reminding myself that God has someone out there for me. Whatever.
Love,
Elizabeth W.
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January 10, 2013
January 9, 2013
Having a Good Day...
Today has been rather amazing so far.
First, I got to fix coffee this morning in our Keurig maker and then got to drink it all before I got to school. We had an awesome lesson in FCA, taught by the lovely Shelby, and I got to eat a donut that was still warm. I have only done fun work so far in my classes. I found out yesterday that the dual credit problem was merely a glitch. I don't have drama practice today, and I will get to do whatever I want when I get home. Economics isn't as hard and scary as I thought it would be, its just thinking through problems with a little bit of math thrown in, but we haven't gotten to the math yet. I e-mailed a group of nerdfighters and I am going to be part of the 365 nerds project. I worked a little more on the children's book that I am writing. I think today has just been a wonderful day and I hope it will continue to be one. Oh, and tomorrow I get to leave school early to get my eyes checked and get new glasses.
I know that was a lot to put in one paragraph, but I didn't feel like seperating it. I just feel really talkative due to the coffee that I had this morning. Coffee doesn't make me hyper, in fact, I'm still tired. It simply makes me want to talk a lot. Sometimes it gets me in trouble, but a lot of the time it is really fun.
I really am beginning to wonder what exactly my freaking-out fits are. Is it just overreaction? Is there a name for it? I mean, it doesn't stop me from functioning, since I can normally find a way to hide it, but I think it would be cool if I knew the name for it, since it would make it more official. I wonder if it is a hereditary thing, because my grandma on my dad's side does something very similar.
Yesterday I found the youtube channel of my best friend. It was kinda cool to watch the two videos her and her brother put up. They did something similar to the vlogbrothers, but didn't get very far with it. The thing about being a Nerdfighter is that sometimes I'm not sure if I really am. I mean, I enjoy the videos that John and Hank make, I just don't agree with a few of their beliefs. That doesn't stop me from watching and enjoying their videos though. I am a rather open-minded person, but I stand firm in my beliefs.
I was looking up stuff in another tab while I was typing this and I came across something called "Histrionic Personality Disorder". I looked at the treatment and symptoms and whatnot, and I feel like I really fit the bill. There are some things that are different, so if I have it, it is probably only a mild form. But is says that these people are often high-functioning. Oh, well. I need to stop being a hypocondriac.
Some of my friends are in this band called "The States Seem Smaller" and they got to go to a recording studio here recently. They are really excited about the people they get to work with and the fact that they are going to have their own EP. I never really get excited about this sort of thing, but I think it will probably be good, and I can't wait to get a copy of it. I could use some new music to listen to.
Okay, I just took a personality disorder quiz, and here are my results. The first number on each one is me and the second number is everyone else's average. Its strange because I look at the results and think about what they mean (I had to look some words up) and I realize that these things are rather true. I'm rather un-paranoid I guess. I trust people mostly. I am definately Schizotypal - I know that I am wierd. I'm not so sure about narcisistic. My brother is the more narcissistic one. I never thought of myself as being obsessive-compulsive, then I realized how much I change when I make a mistake or something that I don't like on a blog post. I ever did it in making the previous sentence. I almost worded it differently, but I misspelled something and changed the wording when I went back to fix it. And it does show me being rather histrionic. I always knew I was a bit crazy and I feel like this proves it.
Paranoid ---26% ---50%
Schizoid ---18% ---40%
Schizotypal ---74% ---56%
Antisocial ---46% ---46%
Borderline ---38% ---45%
Histrionic ---50% ---35%
Narcissistic ---70% ---40%
Avoidant ---46% ---48%
Dependent ---46% ---44%
Obsessive-Compulsive ---58% ---45%
I like taking strange little quizzes like that when I am bored, but I rarely believe the results. I want to take an IQ test someday, but I don't know which one to take or where and how to take it. My economic teacher offered to give one to the whole class once, but everyone was against it for some reason. I don't really care what it is, I just want to know.
Well, this was a very very strange post. I should probably shut up now. Talk to you all tomorrow or something.
Love,
Elizabeth W.
First, I got to fix coffee this morning in our Keurig maker and then got to drink it all before I got to school. We had an awesome lesson in FCA, taught by the lovely Shelby, and I got to eat a donut that was still warm. I have only done fun work so far in my classes. I found out yesterday that the dual credit problem was merely a glitch. I don't have drama practice today, and I will get to do whatever I want when I get home. Economics isn't as hard and scary as I thought it would be, its just thinking through problems with a little bit of math thrown in, but we haven't gotten to the math yet. I e-mailed a group of nerdfighters and I am going to be part of the 365 nerds project. I worked a little more on the children's book that I am writing. I think today has just been a wonderful day and I hope it will continue to be one. Oh, and tomorrow I get to leave school early to get my eyes checked and get new glasses.
I know that was a lot to put in one paragraph, but I didn't feel like seperating it. I just feel really talkative due to the coffee that I had this morning. Coffee doesn't make me hyper, in fact, I'm still tired. It simply makes me want to talk a lot. Sometimes it gets me in trouble, but a lot of the time it is really fun.
I really am beginning to wonder what exactly my freaking-out fits are. Is it just overreaction? Is there a name for it? I mean, it doesn't stop me from functioning, since I can normally find a way to hide it, but I think it would be cool if I knew the name for it, since it would make it more official. I wonder if it is a hereditary thing, because my grandma on my dad's side does something very similar.
Yesterday I found the youtube channel of my best friend. It was kinda cool to watch the two videos her and her brother put up. They did something similar to the vlogbrothers, but didn't get very far with it. The thing about being a Nerdfighter is that sometimes I'm not sure if I really am. I mean, I enjoy the videos that John and Hank make, I just don't agree with a few of their beliefs. That doesn't stop me from watching and enjoying their videos though. I am a rather open-minded person, but I stand firm in my beliefs.
I was looking up stuff in another tab while I was typing this and I came across something called "Histrionic Personality Disorder". I looked at the treatment and symptoms and whatnot, and I feel like I really fit the bill. There are some things that are different, so if I have it, it is probably only a mild form. But is says that these people are often high-functioning. Oh, well. I need to stop being a hypocondriac.
Some of my friends are in this band called "The States Seem Smaller" and they got to go to a recording studio here recently. They are really excited about the people they get to work with and the fact that they are going to have their own EP. I never really get excited about this sort of thing, but I think it will probably be good, and I can't wait to get a copy of it. I could use some new music to listen to.
Okay, I just took a personality disorder quiz, and here are my results. The first number on each one is me and the second number is everyone else's average. Its strange because I look at the results and think about what they mean (I had to look some words up) and I realize that these things are rather true. I'm rather un-paranoid I guess. I trust people mostly. I am definately Schizotypal - I know that I am wierd. I'm not so sure about narcisistic. My brother is the more narcissistic one. I never thought of myself as being obsessive-compulsive, then I realized how much I change when I make a mistake or something that I don't like on a blog post. I ever did it in making the previous sentence. I almost worded it differently, but I misspelled something and changed the wording when I went back to fix it. And it does show me being rather histrionic. I always knew I was a bit crazy and I feel like this proves it.
Paranoid ---26% ---50%
Schizoid ---18% ---40%
Schizotypal ---74% ---56%
Antisocial ---46% ---46%
Borderline ---38% ---45%
Histrionic ---50% ---35%
Narcissistic ---70% ---40%
Avoidant ---46% ---48%
Dependent ---46% ---44%
Obsessive-Compulsive ---58% ---45%
I like taking strange little quizzes like that when I am bored, but I rarely believe the results. I want to take an IQ test someday, but I don't know which one to take or where and how to take it. My economic teacher offered to give one to the whole class once, but everyone was against it for some reason. I don't really care what it is, I just want to know.
Well, this was a very very strange post. I should probably shut up now. Talk to you all tomorrow or something.
Love,
Elizabeth W.
December 27, 2012
Laziness...
I have been rather lazy the last few days. I have gotten things done in my laziness, but I was lazy nonetheless.
I started editing the "Zombie" music video using PowerDirector on Christmas. We didn't have as many places to go as we normally do, so I had some free time. I worked on it yesterday and today also, so I am about half way done. I thought I was more than 3/4 done, but it turns out I had somehow been missing part of the audio track, so I went back and re-downloaded it and I am half way done.
I love PowerDirector as far as the editing aspect. There are so many different things you can do to make a video look how you want it to look. However, I wish it had better titles and credits. It only has like four title options and none for credits. I think I'll just finish the video, then bring it into movie maker to add in the title and credits.
I also plan on having a video commentary explaining different parts. Basically, I'll turn on my webcam and film my comments and reactions as I watch the finished video.
I have started writing a book. My brother is really bad at setting up things like the Xbox and Wii and DVD player, so I am making a short book for him. That way, when I go off to college, I know he will be able to do these things himself. I have about nine pages so far in Microsoft Word. Of course, that includes the title page and table of contents, and a lot of the book is just a skeleton outline so far.
I have started on this thing called a "smash book" that I got for christmas. Basically, it is a scrapbook of messiness and random stuff. It doesn't have to be perfect, and you can record whatever you want in it. I plan to post some pictures of it on here soon. It is not something that you just sit down and do, then be finished with. It is an ongoing project to help you keep up with your memories.
My grandpa got me a caligraphy set for Christmas. I think its rather cool, but it will require some practice to get good at it. I guess I'll use it to write a letter to him someday or something like that.
We have a fancy one-cup-at-a-time coffee maker now. It makes really good coffee, hot chocolate, and tea. It should make it easier and faster to make coffee on school mornings too. My mom said there is a chance I might get one of my own when I go off to college. That would be amazing.
Well, I'm going to go get some food or coffee or something. Goodbye for today!
Love,
Elizabeth W.
I started editing the "Zombie" music video using PowerDirector on Christmas. We didn't have as many places to go as we normally do, so I had some free time. I worked on it yesterday and today also, so I am about half way done. I thought I was more than 3/4 done, but it turns out I had somehow been missing part of the audio track, so I went back and re-downloaded it and I am half way done.
I love PowerDirector as far as the editing aspect. There are so many different things you can do to make a video look how you want it to look. However, I wish it had better titles and credits. It only has like four title options and none for credits. I think I'll just finish the video, then bring it into movie maker to add in the title and credits.
I also plan on having a video commentary explaining different parts. Basically, I'll turn on my webcam and film my comments and reactions as I watch the finished video.
I have started writing a book. My brother is really bad at setting up things like the Xbox and Wii and DVD player, so I am making a short book for him. That way, when I go off to college, I know he will be able to do these things himself. I have about nine pages so far in Microsoft Word. Of course, that includes the title page and table of contents, and a lot of the book is just a skeleton outline so far.
I have started on this thing called a "smash book" that I got for christmas. Basically, it is a scrapbook of messiness and random stuff. It doesn't have to be perfect, and you can record whatever you want in it. I plan to post some pictures of it on here soon. It is not something that you just sit down and do, then be finished with. It is an ongoing project to help you keep up with your memories.
My grandpa got me a caligraphy set for Christmas. I think its rather cool, but it will require some practice to get good at it. I guess I'll use it to write a letter to him someday or something like that.
We have a fancy one-cup-at-a-time coffee maker now. It makes really good coffee, hot chocolate, and tea. It should make it easier and faster to make coffee on school mornings too. My mom said there is a chance I might get one of my own when I go off to college. That would be amazing.
Well, I'm going to go get some food or coffee or something. Goodbye for today!
Love,
Elizabeth W.
November 29, 2012
Frustrations! But Christmas parties are coming!
So, as far as scholarships go right now, I am not a winner. I have applied to at least 100 scholarships online, and I have not gotten word back from any of them. I check their websites and I am not listed in the winners for thost that have posted results. I'm not the only one to have this problem either, all of my friends say the same thing has happened to them. I had someone tell me that institutional and essay scholarships are your best bet for winning, so I guess I should start applying for more of those. I just hate when you have to print things out and mail them off.
I really want to get some scholarships so that I can go to the uniersity that I want to go to. My parents don't have enough money to send me there and pay for everything I need.
I am also very frustrated with the website of the school I applied to and plan on going to. There is a way to log on and find out if your application has been processed and accepted yet. I haven't gotten an acceptance letter in the mail yet, but I check every day. I should be accepted, since I am ranked fourth in my class. But I cannot log on to the website because I cannot remember my username! Ugh!
I am happy and excited, however, for next weekend. On Friday, I have a get-together to go to with the girls from my church. Its with our sunday school leader from a while back. We're gonna have food and cookie decorating and a bunch of fun stuff and fellowship. Then, on saturday, there is a cookie exchange at my friend's house which I hope to get to go to. I've never been to a cookie exchange, but it should be fun. Then, on the last day of school (the 21st of December) my spanish class is having a gift exchange. We did a secret santa thing this year. It should all be really fun and Christmas-y.
Something that really bothers me about Christmas time is people who say "Happy Holidays" instead of Merry Christmas. Oh, I can't offend anyone if I say Happy Holidays. Who cares if you offend anyone!? Do you really think it would hurt people's feelings if you told them happy birthday when it wasn't their birthday? And if it really offends them that much that you told them indirectly that you are a Christian and believe in celebrating Christian holidays, then tell them," PUT YO BIG GIRL PANTIES ON AND DEAL WITH IT!" People are soooooooooo afraid to step on anyone's toes. I think that sometimes toes need to be stepped on, especially when they were purposely put underneath the foot!
Filth.
Garbage.
Lies.
Christ died on the cross and roes from the dead three days later all to pay for your sins, buddy. If you think that he wouldn't want you to celebrate his birthday just because some Bhuddist thought differently, you're wrong. Merry CHRISTmas, and to all a good night.
Question of the day:
I really want to get some scholarships so that I can go to the uniersity that I want to go to. My parents don't have enough money to send me there and pay for everything I need.
I am also very frustrated with the website of the school I applied to and plan on going to. There is a way to log on and find out if your application has been processed and accepted yet. I haven't gotten an acceptance letter in the mail yet, but I check every day. I should be accepted, since I am ranked fourth in my class. But I cannot log on to the website because I cannot remember my username! Ugh!
I am happy and excited, however, for next weekend. On Friday, I have a get-together to go to with the girls from my church. Its with our sunday school leader from a while back. We're gonna have food and cookie decorating and a bunch of fun stuff and fellowship. Then, on saturday, there is a cookie exchange at my friend's house which I hope to get to go to. I've never been to a cookie exchange, but it should be fun. Then, on the last day of school (the 21st of December) my spanish class is having a gift exchange. We did a secret santa thing this year. It should all be really fun and Christmas-y.
Something that really bothers me about Christmas time is people who say "Happy Holidays" instead of Merry Christmas. Oh, I can't offend anyone if I say Happy Holidays. Who cares if you offend anyone!? Do you really think it would hurt people's feelings if you told them happy birthday when it wasn't their birthday? And if it really offends them that much that you told them indirectly that you are a Christian and believe in celebrating Christian holidays, then tell them," PUT YO BIG GIRL PANTIES ON AND DEAL WITH IT!" People are soooooooooo afraid to step on anyone's toes. I think that sometimes toes need to be stepped on, especially when they were purposely put underneath the foot!
Filth.
Garbage.
Lies.
Christ died on the cross and roes from the dead three days later all to pay for your sins, buddy. If you think that he wouldn't want you to celebrate his birthday just because some Bhuddist thought differently, you're wrong. Merry CHRISTmas, and to all a good night.
Question of the day:
Do you get offended when people say Merry Christmas, or when they say Happy Holidays?
Love,
Elizabeth W.
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