The day the coffee tried to kill me

I actually managed to make coffee before leaving for college this morning. I'm not sure if I've mentioned this before, but our microwave died and I'm too lazy to actually use the coffee pot or the keurig machine since both require being cleaned out. So, coffee and tea must be made by boiling water on the stove. And it was okay coffee that I made this morning. It just hated me, because about half way to school, I began to feel like I was going to puke. So I didn't get to drink it all :(

I'm also really tired and whatnot. Like, more tired than I normally am, which sucks. The kind of tired where I almost have to make a conscious effort to stay seated in my chair right now and keep my eyes open. And I didn't stay up any later than normal or anything. Maybe the caffeine will do something soon.

I need to edit my vlog while I'm in the library today. I did manage to talk about Ravenclaw and Harry Potter, so its going to be nerdy and awesome.

I actually don't have a lot of homework to work on today. I need to finish up study questions for government and read another chapter for speech (or at least start reading it) and that's it. Its nice not having 5 things to do this morning. I wish I could take a nap, but that's simply not possible.

Wouldn't it be great if they had an area for naps on every college campus? Like, in the same way that they have places for studying, have rooms or areas with benches or big comfy chairs and a quiet atmosphere so people can take naps. Because, you know, college kids get up early and the time between classes could easily be used for a well deserved nap if they had a place for it.

I still feel like crap, but I have homework to do.

EDIT: I forgot to say this. Yesterday, I updated my online store, so there are actually some knitted hats and I'll try to get knitted arm warmers up within a day or two. And maybe I can finish up a scarf by next week. http://lizardbreath.storenvy.com

I also looked back through my computer and found an old story that I had been working on and put it over into my writing program (ywriter, which is FREAKING AWESOME) and began adding to it. Its kinda TFIOS-esque, but not the same. And its written very differently. Like, I'm not sure if people will be able to keep up with it. It has a before/after (like, before/after a specific event) format, but one chapter is before, the next is after, the next is before, the next is after, etc. I really want to write on it some today, so hopefully I'll get to that before I have to leave the library.

Also, I got to wear my combat boots today. It makes me happy to wear them. Is that weird? I'm just hoping I don't take forever getting them on and off during theatre class, since we always have to take off our shoes during class.

-EW

MONDAY FUNDAY (jk, not really that fun)

So, I'm a little late at blogging this morning because I was updating some Jamberry stuff and researching how to get a sponsor for the blog. Its a process that can either be really easy or really difficult. We'll see how that turns out. I tried to go the easy way, but I'm still waiting for things. And if that doesn't work, we'll go the hard way. I swear, I'm not a sell-out (thats exactly what a sell-out would say!), I just think that since I've spent several years blogging, I might as well do something useful with it. I wouldn't mind making a few bucks a month and Google Adsense is currently making no cents. See what I did there? WORD PUNS.

I did a lot of homework this weekend and FINALLY got my textbook and online access for biology. I missed one assignment, but it didn't seem like it counted for much. Plus, I went back and did it anyway for review. Because of this, I don't have a ton of homework to work on today. I need to finish filling out my lab book from the lab on Thursday, work on the stupid study guide for government, and rehearse my speech and work on the powerpoint for it. Whoo.

There is a freaking fly in the kitchen and it cannot find another place to land besides on me. GAH.

I found a really long eyelash today. Like, its at least 1/4 inch longer than all of my other eyelashes, and thats crazy because I have really long eyelashes anyway. And its not like its fallen out or anything. The freakishly long eyelash is still attached at the roots. Its also blonde on the end, which makes it difficult to see.

I have to film a vlog today and I know that I want it to be Harry Potter related, but I'm not really sure what to talk about. I thought about talking about Ravenclaw, but WHAT ABOUT RAVENCLAW SHOULD I SPEAK OF???? Maybe I should just talk about my HP house and then challenge the other people on KEEYSS to talk about their houses also.

I put on the only pair of Jamberry Nail Wraps besides watermelons that I haven't worn yet. Pink zebra. Whoo! They look so cool and because I took my time putting them on, they seem to be stuck REALLY well. I guess that's the key thing. Take your time instead of rushing to apply them. I spent probably 30 or 40 minutes as opposed to my normal 15/20 minutes. I wasn't worried that I needed to go to bed soon like I normally am. Look at how sweet my nails are!!!

And those awesome KNITTED fingerless gloves are probably going to go up in the store today if I can manage to get some good pictures of them. I love them so much, but I need money more than I need fingerless gloves. I also have yet to fix my hair today. And that final smile is freakishly realistic. I don't know where it came from.

Anyway, those nails aren't available anymore, but they have some similar ones. Check them out on the jamberry site and get yourself some (four weeks of nails and 12 weeks of toes for $15? Thats a freaking steal!). And check back on my store by 4 or so today and I'll have the fingerless gloves and some other knitted stuff up.

Jamberry: http://elizaw95.jamberrynails.net

Shop: http://lizardbreath.storenvy.com/

-EW

Comparisons and Characters

So, I'm not really going to talk much about school today because I need a break from thinking about it before I get started on homework. I have an essay due today and a speech outline due Sunday and neither of them are finished. I will say that college labs are a bit different than high school labs. The professor just gives you a general idea of what you're talking about and the rest is in the lab book. We did 2 experiments yesterday (nothing major, just changing the colors of liquids). I mean, he did walk around and answer questions if there were any, but otherwise it was "read the paper, do the thing, don't screw it up".

Ever since I was a little kid, I've always loved comparing myself to characters in movies and film, finding which character I was most like. And that idea has continued and its still something that I enjoy doing, whether its a character in a movie or book or show or whatever. And I compare other people too. Is that weird?

It was really useful when I was a little kid, because I would use the movies and books and shows to create games of make believe (most of them on my own) and I would make myself the character I most related to. So when I was playing, I was Ariel and Tinkerbell and Pocahontas and all of my other favorite characters. And as I got older, I found strength in knowledge in relating to Luna Lovegood (even though a lot of people thought I was crazy) and I was proud of my tininess in relating myself to Tinkerbell and Frodo and whatnot.

I think the most devastating comparison that I ever managed to make was shortly after I watched the Phantom of the Opera. I fell in love with the movie and bought it so that I could watch it again and again. And I started comparing myself to the characters. And I was convinced rather quickly that I was not Christine or Meg. I was pretty sure that I was the Phantom. Don't get me wrong, I love the character, but it kind of hurt. I wasn't the girl that people fell in love with. I wasn't really helpless. I was the creepy stalker, crazy genius that no one liked. This occurred during middle school and I went through high school thinking pretty much the same thing.

I was laying in bed, thinking about this last night because I had been listening to music from the Phantom of the Opera before I went to sleep. And I realized that this wasn't a good thing. Judging myself based on fictional characters. Sure, when they help me, its fine, but when it works against me, it sucks. And in reality, I'm nothing like any of the characters in Phantom of the Opera. I'm not a monster who would murder people. And I'm not a stupid opera singer who can't choose between guys. And I don't know why I couldn't move on from that when I was in middle school because it would have saved me a lot of hurt that I didn't tell anyone about.

This was a very weird blog. Anyway, I hope you enjoyed it anyway, and I'll be back on Monday.

-EW

Lab Day

Today, I have a lab for Biology. I really don't want to have a lab for biology. I mean, its okay to be in the lab instead of sitting there, trying to pay attention during a lecture. Its refreshing, actually. But I have to wait until 3:00 to go there instead of 1:30. I get to spend time studying or whatever. Joy. I hope the lab is interesting at least.

I heard someone say last time that there was homework due yesterday, but I wouldn't know since I don't have online access yet. I mean, I technically could have bought it, but I'm not sure if my textbook comes with online access already or not. I'm waiting for it to come in the mail. And no, I couldn't have just bought it from the college bookstore in the first place because it was super expensive there! My mom said that I should talk to the professor, but I think I'll probably just email him instead. I mean, I hate talking to people, particularly those that have authority over me, but at least email makes it so that I can get my words organized before they are seen/heard. I've always thought that I do better with written word than spoken word.

I swear, I need some coffee or something. But again, I've done the thing where I open up my laptop before I think about going to get some.

I actually wanted to make coffee or tea this morning before I left, but  I didn't have enough time to boil water. Our microwave went out the other day and we're not planning on getting a new one until we move (which will hopefully be soon), so all stuff that we would normally cook in the microwave has to be cooked either on the stove or in the oven. That's how I made my cup of tea yesterday morning.

I want a kettle. Like, one for boiling water to make tea and coffee and stuff. An electric kettle. I think I'll look some up on amazon before the day is over. I already saw one that I like on pinterest that had hello kitty on it. Although, I suppose that the aesthetics of the kettle aren't the most important part. I'll probably end up buying a $20 one from amazon or something. Because I looked it up and one like that is $90 or so. I should really use the keurig, but it needs to be cleaned and because of circumstances tends to need to be cleaned before each use, which makes it less convenient than it should be. I also saw a fantastic idea called a "Kug", which is a cross between a kettle and a mug, so its a portable mug/thermos that you plug in and it heats up. I want one really badly, but they're still working on making them, with like prototypes and stuff. I signed up to be emailed when they finally finish making them though.

Bento box pickings are getting slim. I mean, I've still managed to pack a full bento box for both me and my mom each time we needed it, but its getting so that the meals are pretty boring or really creative. Or both. Today is another "salami, cheese, and crackers with various accessories" day. But at least its food. I want to make the really cool, pretty bento boxes like you see in videos and pictures online. But I really don't have a lot to work with. I can't wait until we have more money to go grocery shopping. Is it sad that I'm saying that less than a week into the month?

I got my fast start monthly rewards for last month on Jamberry. $75 of product credit. I used up all but $5 of it, but I can't wait to get them in the mail. These are the ones I ordered:

 

My next fast start period is shorter and requires a little more. I need $600 of sales by the end of this month along with 2 parties and another recruit. If I can manage to get three fast start things in a row, I get a special incentive thing, I think. If I'm remembering correctly. And I made more this week than I thought I would, so I'll actually have money by the end of tomorrow. WHOO! If you like these designs and would LOVE to help me out with, like, continuing my life and The Life as a blog, feel free to make a purchase on jamberry or one of my other sites by following these links:

http://elizaw95.jamberrynails.net

http://lizardbreath.storenvy.com/

http://www.redbubble.com/people/lizardbreathw

I really should be writing an essay for government. The assignment is due tomorrow. I was supposed to look up all kinds of crap about a Senator or Representative from my state and how much money was involved in their 2010 campaign, then write a 2 page (well, it says 1 page, but the syllabus says 2 pages will get me a higher grade) reaction to this information. My real reaction is "Wow, that's a lot of money, but I really don't care", but my essay will be some kind of BS for 2 pages with big words thrown in to seem smart. Isn't college fun? NOT!

I guess I should probably be productive. ICK.

Do I complain too much? I feel like I might. Sorry. But you're the one who reads it anyway.

-EW

Knitted Hats

I'm listening to the audiobook of An Abundance of Katherines by John Green this morning. I have the actual book, but actual reading has become difficult lately. I've also got a ton of things to do today. But I really haven't done much productive except take a shower, wash some dishes, and make a breakfast of a cup of oolong tea and a blueberry bagel.

I pledged one of my knitted hats to another person today. I"m already going to make one for a teacher at my mom's school that recently found out that she has cancer and I've made one for another teachers' friend before. I just feel like people who have cancer deserve to have a nice hat if nothing else. This girl hasn't responded yet, but I hope she does. I want to send her a hat in her favorite color and maybe a handwritten letter and a bible or something. I don't know much about her, except that she's a nerdfighter and she's about to start chemo and lose all her hair for the second time in her life. She's only 17.

I like giving away hats. I like making people happy. I like giving gifts. Because even if I can't make myself happy or anything, I know that I can do that for someone else. I've wanted to do stuff like this ever since I was little, but I haven't had the ability to do so until now. I like it. I have no clue why I'm talking about this.

I wish I had a bunch of friends my age who knitted and crocheted so that we could knit and crochet together and send them to people and maybe have a store together to take care of yarn costs. Or even a version of the quilt and pray group at the church that was knit, crochet, and pray instead. Although I'm not sure that I want to hang around old people all the time. I love old people, but all they want to talk about with me is college and not making the same mistakes that they and their kids made, which is all fine and dandy, but it gets old.

I'm mentally and physically exhausted. It was really bad last night. I kept forgetting things and whatnot. College was really stressful and tiring yesterday. I'm going to work on homework and do chores and watch Doctor Who. Have a great day!

-EW

Tuesday... Ick!

It was easier to get up this morning than either morning of last week. I guess I will eventually get used to it. I actually woke up about 2 minutes before my alarm instead of sleeping through half of it. I put my hair in soft curlers last night, so its a curly hair day. My hair is finally long enough to do that again. Half of the hair fell out of the curlers though (as so often happens when I don't need it to) so I ended up doing quite a bit of touching up with the actual curling iron. And, despite my tiredness, I managed to look cute today. From my hair to my tutu-like skirt. Hooray for cuteness! Boo for tiredness.

I should have eaten breakfast this morning but I totally didn't. Now I'm hungry and tired. I suppose coffee or something from the cafe thingy is an option, but I'd rather not get up. I have to sit at a different table today because someone is already sitting at mine. Mine? I sat there for 2 mornings. Its funny, she's on a laptop as well, though I don't think she's blogging. She's probably actually doing homework.

I'm starting to get into the swing of things as far as homework goes also. I need to work on my outline for my speech, do a study guide for government, and read "Trifles" this morning. Although, I might not actually read Trifles since I've read it like 3 times already. But I still have 2.5 hours to decide that. You'd think this would make me get off the blog and work, but NAH.

Still haven't heard from Andrew since about lunchtime Sunday. I know I'm whiny and needy and clingy and annoying, but at least let me know I still matter. My mind has a wonderful way of convincing me that people don't really care. I mean, I know that people have a life outside of me. I know that I'm not the center of the universe. But still... Ick. Sadness.

I swear, coffee would make this day so much better. Maybe theatre class will cheer me up. It generally does.

Oh, I started a group on facebook yesterday. Mainly because one didn't exist and I need it to exist for the purpose of homework help. I don't like being an Admin on it, but I'll stay one for now. Its a group for college nerdfighters. I thought there would already be one, but apparently not. I thought it would be good for homework help AND for socializing with college age people especially, since a lot of the main NERDFIGHTERIA facebook page is middle and high schoolers. We already have 26 members and like 4 or 5 admins besides me. But it seems that I'm probably the one that is on facebook the most.

I did the ice bucket challenge yesterday. Whoo. I still need to get online at home and donate my $10. I'll do that tonight or tomorrow morning I guess. In all honesty, I should have put the ice in the bucket before I started filming, since it meant the water wasn't that cold. I mean, it wasn't warm by any means, but it wasn't ice cold. WHATEVER. I'm donating money, so that's the important part. The video went on the KEEYSS channel because it was my vlog for today. Feel free to watch me have water dumped all over me by my mother.

Well, I"m going to write a rough draft of a speech outline and work on a study guide. Have a great day!
-EW

Ice Bucket Day

Today, I have to make my ALS Ice Bucket Challenge video. What fun. I almost didn't blog today, but I needed to get on the computer anyway and I was kinda bored. Okay, very bored. I'm supposed to be studying but I really don't want to.

Government is SOOOO boring. And I need to find some notes/outline/something to use, because reading straight from the textbook and taking notes isn't cutting it. I have no clue what to write down. I got an app that lets me make flash cards, which I did with this chapter's terms, but its very tedious and I still have 2 more chapters to read before the end of the week. ICK! Maybe I can find something on the college website.

In other news, the Labor Day holiday being a day off from school had no purpose for me this year except that my family gets to be home to annoy me. Well, my parents are out and about, so its mainly my brothers.

Andrew won't text me today, which has increased my level of boredness. And annoyedness. Darn.

OOOOHHH. There are no notes or anything and the glossary and crossword and flash cards and crap won't work on the school website, but there is a Study Guide that I might be able to use to take notes. I think I have to complete it anyway, so whatever.

I found this thing called "Study Blue" that is supposed to be a flashcard, notes, outline, studying type site. Not sure how well its going to work. A limited amount of it is free, but after that its like $50 a year. I really hope it can do what I want it to without paying. You go in and add your class based on the college/course/teacher you are taking. Only, I think I'll have to use it for a different school, because there are no notes on the one for my school.

Jamberry put out its new catalog today. WHOO! And I'm doing a Jamberry Mystery Party this week since no one had a party booked. Basically, its just like a normal party, but instead of the hostess keeping the rewards at the end, there is no hostess, and I randomly pick someone to get the hostess rewards. Should be lots of fun! I'm thinking about doing something similar here on the blog at some point. And I'd give away some wraps if people participated. Sound like a good idea?

I need to go be productive, so I'll blather on about nothingness again tomorrow.

-EW